Seconds Away, Round Three

Well here I am again constant reader, I am sorry to have to tell you but the cancer has returned. At the moment we are not sure where as I have not had a scan yet but my blood results are all over the place and my liver is really suffering so the oncologist thinks that is the most likely place again. I am awaiting a chest x-ray to see if its there but I am not coughing and I am actually in no pain at all from my side, it just feels very heavy and full. I am not eating very much at the moment but not losing any weight so I suspect I am retaining fluid in that area. So, how do I feel in myself? Been there, done that, starting chemo on Monday and not afraid of that. I am more worried about my son, he is 11 now, I am going to tell him this evening. It's more obvious at the moment that I am ill, I look like a ghost, I cannot stand for more than 5 minutes without feeling breathless, I was sick last night. However, I have a lot of friends pulling for me, I feel totally enclosed and protected. I cried a lot on Tuesday when my GP told me but not very much since - crying doesn't achieve anything and just fuels those evil cells so keeping positive and sleeping lots. There is nothing I can do right now other than look after me and my son, rest as much as possible and get better.