Day One

Today I found out I have breast cancer. When you write it down like that, it seems scary enough, but that is nothing compared to how I am feeling right now. I am a huge bundle of emotions. I am scared, obviously, but what of? Not the operation. I want that as soon as possible. I am scared that I have come to the end of my journey, and that my time has come. At the moment, I am waiting on more test results - they took a biopsy today of the lymph nodes in my left armpit - the cancer is in my left breast. My treatment will be determined upon the results of these tests. All I know right now is that I am going to lose my left breast. Temporarily. See now, here is where I come in. I am surrounded by friends who love me, a fantastic medical team, and my response to reconstruction? Can you make me a size bigger this time. So, what other emotions am I feeling? I am glad they are taking the whole breast away - although at the moment I am fairly attached to it, it has now rebelled against me and must be disciplined accordingly. I am worried about leaving my son - he is only nine at the moment, but I am confident that I have given him a good start in his life and that he will turn into a wonderful man, with or without me. Hopefully with. This blog is not going to be the rantings of a terrified woman - it very easily could be. I am a fighter, and I accept the challenge. I will keep you updated every step of the way.