Day Fifty Six

I was ok until I spoke to my parents half an hour ago, then it all came out. Feeling very soggy and in dire need of my mother and father at the moment. I wish my parents didn't live so far away. Sometimes I feel very alone - not very often, but inside me right now is a very frightened child. It's all very well being the big brave me, I had to crack at some point. I am coping with this, I have no choice. The gang at work are being very supportive - you all seem to know what I need at the moment, it's like a pack mentality! You don't seem to like leaving me on my own, it's instinctive, making sure I know when one of you is going to be back. Thank you for knowing me as well as you do. Oh I am feeling very sorry for myself at the moment! I know that no-one can do this for me, I have to do this by myself, but not by myself. I am ok. Just a little tired and emotional - but think I am allowed, just this once.