Day 153

I am catching myself thinking that I have HAD cancer, not I HAVE cancer, in the same way that I knew when I was pregnant that my baby was a little boy. It is an unconscious certainty. I find that comforting. I am so tired at the moment, it was all I could do to get out of bed this morning, yet I still managed to do a full day today. When I am at work, I am ok, it's the getting there and coming home I am having problems with at the moment. I want to go to bed now. Last early morning tomorrow, my little fella is breaking up from school so I will be able to sleep in, hurrah! He will be with his dad for a couple of days so I intend to sleep as much as I can. Why is it that when you wake up at 3am it takes you about an hour to get back to sleep, but when your alarm goes off you can fall asleep in between snooze buttons?!