Day 77

Well today didn't go as well as planned but never mind! My veins decided to hide from the cold and they could not get the contrast dye in for my MRI. I have had the scan but the images will not be as good. However, they will also be able to use my blood results to see how I am doing. It was not all bad, I was sat in the waiting room all gowned up and feeling attractive and there were two other ladies in there as well. The lady to my right said "My body all went downhill when I turned 40", I said "Well mine went when I turned 34" and then the lady to my left said "Well mine went downhill when I turned 27!". She had ovarian cancer. We then swapped tales of spare hair and we were all laughing, it was lovely. So the plan now is to wait until I am canulated for my chemo and then have my MRI done at the same time. It was hardly surprising that they could not find a vein, it was freezing cold on the unit, I was anxious and they all had cold hands. I must admit, I cried, just had enough of being hurt, being pulled around, just wanted it all to stop. It wasn't the nursing staff's fault, they were really lovely. Its my useless body. The other lady was saying it would be nice to have a new body. I echo that sentiment!! Wouldn't that be fab, go to a garage for people and have your faulty parts replaced!