Day 82

Had another rough day today. I am in quite a lot of pain in my side right now, actually considering taking a pain killer tonight. I know I am also feeling bad because its treatment day on Friday. It didn't help that yet again they had a hell of a job getting blood out of me for my blood tests. No joy with my arm so the nurse had to take it from the back of my hand and boy it hurt. She was fabulous though, she has given me some magic anaesthetic cream for Friday. I am just so fed up with being ill. I ended up in tears on my friend at work today, just bubbled up and I couldn't do anything about it. I am struggling a bit mentally at the moment. But as I went home today I turned on the radio and there was a song playing, Wires by Athlete..

You got wires, going in
You got wires, coming out of your skin
You got tears, making tracks
I got tears, that are scared of the facts

Well that got my attention.. I was crying by this point. Then the lines..

I see it in your eyes, I see it in your eyes
You'll be alright
I see it in your eyes, I see it in your eyes
You'll be alright

I needed to hear that. As I have been typing this, the pain in my side has changed. It got really intense about half an hour ago. I now have a really deep itchy feeling in my side. You know what - I am going to be alright.