Day Thirty Eight

Went shopping with my sister today - I used to be able to manage marathon trips of seven hours or so - not today. I was flagging after an hour. The tiredness hits you like a concrete wall, just want to curl up in the middle of wherever and go to sleep. So I forced myself to have some chocolate and picked up just a little bit. My skin on my face is really suffering, it feels really greasy and horrible. Chemo works by acting on and destroying fast reproducing cells, which cancer cells are, but it also attacks the nice ones too such as in your mouth, skin and hair - that is why your hair falls out. So, I have no hair and spots to look forward to and bad teeth. I am going to look so attractive! Think I will start stocking up on brown paper bags now! Opened my new hair - it's really beautiful. That at least made me feel better. Oh well, if I am going to look that hideous I may as well go the whole hog and put weight on too - show me the chocolate!