Day Twenty Nine

Last day at work today for a little while, am feeling tired today but I have been waking up in the wee hours. I seem to get into the habit of that. Was expecting to feel tearful after leaving the office but I was fine, put some good music on the car stereo and sang my heart out all the way home! Had a phone call from my doctor, she does not appear to be overly concerned which is comforting. She said I was very good refusing the scalp cooling - when you have chemo, you can have your scalp cooled in a gel cap. It's supposed to stop your hair falling out so much but it also stops the chemo going all the way round your head. I don't want to be worrying in years to come that I could be getting a brain tumour, so I am letting them unleash the full artillery at me, no holds barred. I want to give my self the best chance possible. I am feeling brilliant at the moment, I know that will change over the next few days, but as long as I remain positive that I AM going to beat this, I will get through it. That and a little help from my friends. I am not scared. I am ready.