Day 104

Had my last blood test yesterday! Only took the nurse two goes to get it this time as well, I knew it would be ok. Then got to work and had some bad news. A lady who works on another team passed away on Monday evening.. the reason it was so shocking to me was that she went to the doctor last week feeling poorly, was diagnosed with pneumonia and leukaemia. I just can't get that out of my head. As someone who has been given the chance to fight the good fight I feel cheated on her behalf. Leukaemia is treatable too, it was the pneumonia that killed her. Brought it home to me a bit, I have been quite dismissive of the fact that I am wide open to infection at the moment, even put off going to the doctors last week with a sore mouth. What a surprise, I am feeling down and its two days before my round of chemo! I have been like this before every round. I am not looking forward to the canulation or the pain that I am going to be going through soon, the fact that I am going to be feeling pants for my son's 11th birthday etc. But I am still here. Keep her safe for me.