Day 105

Feeling a bit more positive today thanks to some contructive advice from my friends regarding my upset about my collegue who passed away this week. Feeling upbeat about the fact that this is the last time I have to go through this. Feeling anxious about having the canula in again tomorrow. Feeling lots of pain in my legs already, it's the steroids, I have noticed it the last three rounds so I will take a pain killer tonight to help me sleep. Going up stairs is a real effort but the last two weeks I have found it hard to walk any distance as well, legs feel really heavy. I have cleaned the house, done the shopping and all my chores in preparation, the same way I have done every round as I know I will be feeling rubbish for the next few days.. then it will pass and I will be over it for the last time.. I hope. Then I can take a deep breath, face it head on and look forward to living again. It's been a long old slog, July last year was when I was diagnosed so been at this for 17 months now. Time for living.