Day 96

Brrrr its cold!! Having no hair makes all the difference, I just don't seem to be able to keep warm at the moment. It doesn't help that the heating at work is dodgy so I am sat at my desk in a fleece with my scarf on! I walked into town today, it's not far, but my legs ached so much. They feel really heavy, like my bones are made of lead. I know that's the chemo as it's my legs that hurt after each treatment. I had to finish work after lunch today and come home for a sleep, slept for 2 hours this afternoon but I feel better now. I have not been sleeping very well over the last few nights, just can't seem to settle which isn't like me. I am actually looking forward to getting my body back once the chemo has finished. At the moment it belongs to the doctors, I just do as I am told. My fingernails are just about hanging in there but they are looking really odd, all covered in ridges and the pink bit of my nail is receding. I know that everything will get back to normal though once the treatment stops. And looking forward to that. That is when the real fun starts! Cancer sufferers all say that when the treatment stops, that's when the real psychological warfare begins.. every ache is something else, is it coming back, have I beaten it, waiting on blood test results and so forth. I am prepared, I know it is coming. I think I can handle it.