Day Ninety Seven

Definitely feeling worse for wear today. Woke up this morning and my left arm is killing me, got pain all the way down from my wrist to my elbow and it's swollen up like a balloon. I have been to see the doctor, he is not worried at the moment, I have a good strong pulse, it just looks as if the veins have been aggravated by the chemo. I have to keep an eye on it. Typical, my first visit to the doctor since starting chemo and it's for a sore arm! I have the familiar ice cube in my tummy feeling which is horrible and the cravings have finally kicked in - potatoes and sugar! I am craving carbohydrate which I always do when I am feeling poorly, I also want sugary drinks such as cola and ribena - I really have reverted to my childhood self medication - mashed potato and cola! To me that is a sign that my body is again trying to heal. I am feeling very tired, despite the fact that I slept for nearly twelve hours last night. If I was looking for signs that chemo is taking its toll on my body, I am finally getting them. BUT! Still smiling, not giving in to it altogether, still trying to keep things normal. I do need to rest this time, I am fully intend to or else I am going to get into trouble!