Day 10

Feeling worse today which is different from last time.. last time I felt better as the days went on between sessions. I woke up this morning at 7, got up for an hour and half to have breakfast and then realised I really needed to go back to bed so I did.. and slept for another 3 hours. I only woke up because of the rain outside. Initially I felt fantastic, ready to do some serious housework... right now, an hour and a half later, I feel shattered. My breathing is laboured and everything is an effort. I also have the ache back in my side. I think I know what is going on. When a tumour is attacked, its initial reaction is to throw out lots of growth chemicals - this happens as a norm and it happened to me last year. The tumour is trying to protect itself...because it has received a direct hit. So I am being a good girl and taking it easy. I am going to do the bare minimum today and rest. I am listening to my body.