I have been awake for an hour now- just waiting for the medication to kick in. My ankles and wrists are killing me and I am feeling sick, so just taken some anti-sickness tablets. In fact, lots of my bones are aching, my right leg from ankle to hip, even the joints of my big toes. It has hit my legs. It is a known side effect of the Docetaxol and I was warned but right now all I can think about is this is going to get worse, I have only had 2 lots and I am already dreading the next round. I know I felt like this last time, I know I dreaded having to have the chemo but at least last time I wasn't in pain. I crept downstairs to get some money - I am on tooth fairy duty tonight for my son - and it was all I could do to get back upstairs. I am ok, not upset, just very matter of fact about this all. I can understand why people refuse to have the treatment - if I wasn't so bloody minded, determined and positive with the thought of coming out the other side...
It's now the morning - I am still in a lot of pain, mostly from my right ankle and left wrist but my mouth is hurting too. I have just emailed my dearest friend, Bryher, and I need to tell you too. I am glad that I am suffering because as you know, last time I had chemo I walked through it, it was almost as if I just had a bad cold. This time I am really experiencing what chemo is like. Last time I didn't get rid of all the cancer. You get my drift..?
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