Day 5

I didn't manage to make it into work today, it just felt like a huge task to go in this morning. I didn't sleep terribly well last night, I had nightmares, I had the most vivid dreams with the chemo last time, I just wanted to take time out today and relax for a bit. I got some beautiful flowers, chocolates and a teddy from good friends, such a lovely surprise, one of my dearest friends called me (Hello Bryher!), she is keeping a very good eye on me, I have friends calling me and keeping in touch, making sure I am not overdoing it. It's my friends who pulled me through this last time and I know it will be my friends who get me through it this time. I do have a different attitude this time, Bryher has noticed it. Last time it was all fight and attitude and I think I was guilty of pushing myself too hard.. is that why it has come back? Who knows. So this time.. still positive but more sensible with it.. taking it easy. The world can wait while I get better.