Day 18

Feeling more tired again.. had a busy weekend, I drove for 3 1/2 hours to my sisters and back and then went mad in the garden yesterday afternoon in the glorious Autumn sunshine but then of course I felt whacked out last night and today. My hair is really hurting. For those of you who are female and reading this, can you imagine having your hair in permanent over tight bunchies - thats how it feels. I couldn't wash my hair this morning I had to sort of pat it with the shampoo and its falling out big time now, if I run my fingers through my hair I pull out loads. But it's actually not looking too bad. I now have a decision to make - do I persevere with the pain or do I bite the bullet and give myself a grade 4 cut all over now. What this is does is stop it hurting in bed - I am not pulling the hair then. I am disheartened by the fact that it took me so long to grow my hair last time. I would so much rather keep my own but I know it's inevitable. And hey. It's only hair. I have done this before I can do it again. Sadly, it's the only telltale that my son may pick up on and right now he still doesn't know.