Day 19

Well I have just bitten the bullet.. I have just buzz cut my own hair. It was one of those moments when you just have to get on and do it. And I know I have done the right thing because the pain in my scalp has gone. Does not stop it hurting in my heart though. It's ok, I have had a cry, must admit, feeling a little Why Me today but you know what, I think I am bloody entitled. I know everything happens for a reason and Bryher, I know that it's just a phase I have to go through and it will pass but right now it hurts. I need to tell my blog because for the rest of the world I am still smiling. It's better for me to smile than to cry - better for my body and better for my soul. But to add insult to injury I then had to empty the hoover out!! I am not alright but I will be ok as Mr BonJovi says. I can now touch my head and it doesn't hurt anymore and for that I am grateful.