Day 24

Feeling pretty pathetic at the moment.. everything seems a huge struggle. I slept better last night - I was right, it was the steroids that were keeping me awake, by taking them at lunchtime yesterday, I managed to sleep all the way through last night for 8 hours - but had to go back to bed this morning and then again this afternoon. I am ok, just feeling a bit sorry for myself. I know I am not doing this on my own constant reader and friend but I am sitting at the bottom of a huge mountain and the other side seems so far away. I know I felt like this last time - I am only feeling like this because I am feeling so totally wasted. Once I get sessions 3 & 4 under my belt I know I am on the home straight. Even thinking requires a massive amount of effort and right now I just want to close the door and get on with it. My little man is being an absolute star - I couldn't wish for a better child, he is being a real trooper and I told him as much today - I am so proud of him. Ignore the mood I am in friend.. I have no doubt it is only temporary.