Day 41

Feeling a little better today but still feeling a little emotional. I have my friends around me again and I feel more settled but I found myself getting tearful again at work. I am so close to my friends there, it breaks my heart when I think that I may be leaving them. I don't want to leave the party. I know what this is all about. I have to have another MRI in about 4 weeks time and it will show if the tumours are shrinking. Everything seems bittersweet at the moment. I know its not in my nature to be maudlin and I have no doubt that I will shake this off soon. Please just bear with me. I am sleeping around the clock as well, I went back to bed this morning after having my bloods taken and slept until 1pm. There is part of me that just wants to shut myself away but then I know how much I would be missing out on. And thats the bit of me that is strong and keeps me going. There is so much for us out there. Open your eyes and see what is good in your life.. dont dwell on the bad.