Day 48

I woke up this morning and felt like a different person, its incredible what sleep can do. The fact that I have been able to rest properly at night time thanks to the painkillers has made all the difference. That and sleeping every morning, I really have been resting up properly this time. I need to pop how I am feeling right now in a box so I can take it out next time I am feeling rough just to remind me that I do come out the other side feeling ok. My finger tips on my first two fingers of both hands are still sore, that is a known side effect and I have noticed that my hand is not healing very well from where I cut it just before I had chemo - of course it won't be, the fast growing regenerative cells would have been hit. My friend made an observation about me and my blog, she says it is like there is two of me, one who is the observer doing this blog and another who is getting on with having the disease. I am finding me at the moment. This is a hard journey but just lately I have been asking myself questions, why am I going through this, what is there for me at the other side. I am using this experience to learn and life really is incredibly colourful. I believe that life is not the destination its all about the journey and I am being shown so much right now.