Day 42

Feeling so much better today! See, I said I would. I took my steroids after breakfast and went back to bed, slept. I took them again after lunch and went back to bed and slept again! And I have not had the shakes and palpatations that I have had before because I slept them off! It is definitely the way to go forward. Curiously I had mild aching in my legs today. My blood results are normal yet again - I want to see my tumour markers now though. But I think I will sneak a peek after 3 rounds of chemo as the markers always go up initially and I don't want to scare myself. I went to Tesco this afternoon to get all my food in so that I don't have to worry next week and I have to say I had loads of smiles! Now some of them would have been uncomfortable smiles - I am just wearing my hat again but I have to say that I see a gentler side of humanity at the moment and it's beautiful. People do become incredibly protective when they see one of their own is 'suffering'. Now, to look at me, I am the least victim looking like person on the planet! But I still get the smiles because I smile at them first. And that makes me happy.